Tag: Poetry

Evening Poems: Edge Pieces

~ Brooke F. ~ 3 Comments

But I beg of you, please dont touch me 

For fear that if you do 

I’ll feel complete  

So entirely complete  

I cant give up another piece 

For you to take when you leave  

I’ve already dolled out to many 

Like a puzzle that has lost its edge pieces 

I struggle to see the shape of myself 

Because of what people have taken from me.  

I dont have much left to give  

So I keep what remains close 

For fear of losing the remnants  

The shreds that I have left. 

Please understand  

They’re all I have.  

At nights when I feel the emptiness hanging over my head 

They’re the pieces that I hold close 

Because at least I have them 

But I really want you. 

And that’s this whole predicament. 

I feel like a child in an arcade 

I’ve already spent all my tokens 

On broken games.  

Gambles lost.  

Chasing after the hope that  

This time, I’ll win.  

But its not really about winning and losing anymore. 

It’s about surviving. 

But what do I do now 

As I need love to survive  

So my fish died.

~ Brooke F. ~ 1 Comment

Hello, friends!

It’s been a long week. I’ve been sick for the last few days, all while trying for my finals and, much to my dismay, I found my lovely beta fish dead in his tank (RIP Bernard). It’s just been a rough past couple of days and my poor dead fish seemed to be the physical manifestation of it. So, in a moment of sadness, I wrote a little poem for my fish who kept me company during my freshman year and first half of my sophomore year. You’ll be surprised what can inspire poetry. I find it’s often the little things. So, without further ado, enjoy my homage.

Blue scales and bubbles
The gentle hum of the filter
You were a quiet, honest presence
In a world of noise and worry.

I looked forward to those moments
When I’d sprinkle your food inside
And you’d come out
And share a meal with me
For that is how connection is made

I had a suspicion that I was going soft
When I bought you plants and pebbles
To decorate your home.
But I wanted you to be happy
Because that is my nature
As it was yours to you bump against the glass when I came home every day.
I told myself it was your way of say hi.

I knew I had gone soft
When I found your body plastered against the filter,
And your beautiful scales sucked away.

And when I settled for sleep
And looked to my right,
I wasn’t greeted with the flick of a tail,
Or the healing hum of the tank.

Just an empty container of pebble and rock
With no soul inside.
I cried more than I thought I would
For something so small
But so beautiful.

Evening Poems: Lost

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Once I found home In a place  

A House of brick I couldn’t replace  

But in wind and rain, it crumbled down.  

Home in a Thing, cannot be found.  

Once I found home in a love 

But twas fleeting as a dove 

I came to realize then, when they left 

You cannot find home in what draws breath.  

Once I found home in the mirror 

In life I plunged forward with no fear 

But failure came, despite giving my best  

You cannot find home in your own chest.  

Then I found a home, in a voice  

The path that I had chosen was my own choice 

But there is one, who can renew, 

And transform even the likes of you.  

On this Earth, no home is found. 

Not in person, thing, or town.  

It is found in someone who offers grace.  

I’ll know home, when I see his face.  

The Reality of Poetry

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The reality of poetry is nothing is ever new 

Every word before the formation of the language was thought of and known. 

The reality of poetry is it has all been written.  

The reality of poetry is you are not actually writing. You are pointing. 

To what are you pointing? 

Something bigger and more beautiful than what is before your eyes  

The world you see is a painting  

And what else is a painting for but to reveal the heart of the painter.  

And so that’s what I hope to do 

With every syllable 

And Every pen stroke  

To reveal the heart of the painter  

Evening Poems: Tired of losing sleep over this

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Regret 

Sounds like… 

Voices cracking in the middle of the explanation. 

Apologies that never get heard. 

Rehearsal but no performance.

Regret 

Looks like… 

Everything but their face, because you’re looking all around so you don’t have to meet their gaze. 

Silence that weighs heavier than any words ever could.

Absence.

Regret 

Tastes like… 

The same cup of coffee you’ve had every morning for the past three years. 

Evening Poems: My Sister’s Shoes

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I remember when she was 11 and I was 7

I always got my sister’s old hand me downs. My mom would put the big shoes on my feet. She’d squish the ends to see if they would fit. She would tell me, before I knew it, I’d be in my sister’s shoes.

We made sticky mud pies and told stories. Got grass stained knees and carpet burns. It was nights of lightning bugs and cart wheels that made the world turn.

I remember when she was 15 and I was 11

She didn’t like looking in the mirror but she would still look. She hid behind her hair and cut herself bangs. Friends were scarce because children are cruel. This I came to know too well.

I remember when I was 15 and she was 19.

Social circles became webs to navigate. She said, they said, who said, who cares? They care, I don’t, What happened? Unfair!

I don’t know how, but we made it out in one piece.  First my sister, and then me.

Now she’s having a kid, and I’m 19.

I know I’m next.

The next sister in line.

If I’ll blink, I’ll miss it.

My mother was right.

Before I knew it, I’d be in my sister’s shoes.

Evening Poems: The Ninth

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How do you think a cat would spend its final life?

If it were old and on the ninth

I think a cat would spend its last days

Snoozing in the sun’s streaming rays.

Batting around that ball of lint

Dart around the hall, in a sprint.

And did I mention the

Sleeping. Sleeping. Sleeping.

And around the corners always peeping.

In short I would have to say,

That a cat would spend even its final day

Much how spent every year

Happy and without a single fear.

A cat on even its final minute.

Wouldn’t hesitate to then spend it

Dozing peacefully next to you, as your pet.

Because unlike you, he has no regret.

Evening Poem: I

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I dont know why

I try and try

But theres no strength left in I

I turn left, and then turn right

I feel I am lost without a light

There is no strength left in I

I rely on that “I” so much.

So much that I start most sentences with an I.

I

I

I

Identity starts with I.

That’s on who I rely.

Me, myself, and I.

But not matter what I do

There is no strength left in I

At end of I

There is nothing.

Ironic.

Evening Poems: Velvet Hearts

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I’m sorry, they lied to you
Your heart isnt made of gold
I’m afraid, It is a lie most commonly told.

Your heart is made of velvet, vulnerable and soft.
Those who boast invincible
Are liars who should be scoffed

It is unavoidable,
The tearing of the heart,
So when you’re left in pieces, it is often hard to know where to start.

But there is a tailor,
Whose trade it is to mend.
I’m sure If you’ll ask him, a hand he will lend.

And then you will be
Stitched together by mercy and grace.
And better off you’ll be, in this world you must face.